It’s Wednesday and I’m chained to the couch because once again the inflammation in my back is striking me down. Compulsory rest. Something I do a lot is reflecting. That is my weakest point as well: I am having trouble with letting go. Who am I and where do I stand?
Love: I am very happy with the people I have around me. My love is always there for me, even though I don’t aways see that. My love, I love you. We complement each other perfectly. I am immensely grateful for him. For who he is, how special our relationship is and how he is able to deal with my craziness. I also feel very rich with my select group of friends. I have several groups of friends, and they are all different. I have a very dear family and a king of a father who is always there for me. I love them for who they are, and maybe even more because of who they are for me.
Work: Ambitions enough. But making choices? My goodness, I hate making choices. I have had a good job, but I wanted to follow my passion and at this moment I work very hard for my own business to grow. What is my dream job? Work where I put all my creativity and intelligence in what I do. Being my own boss. Boss myself around. I want to get energy from what I do. I am a hard worker. I am often more stringent for myself than I should be, but that is actually the case with me on every aspect. I’m extremely demanding to myself and to others. I guess that is the reason I was good at the things I have done so far. Besides some exceptions, because those things were not what my heart wanted. And that heart I find most important.
Money: Oh well, money. Indispensable, but how important is it? When I still have some money at the end of the month, I prefer to make a trip instead of saving or buying material stuff. I want to be able to enjoy life, be able to travel and well, build a future. During my travels I have been in villages where money does not exist, and I found them the most beautiful places in the world. A goat, a vegetable garden and a roof. These people were amazingly happy.
Culture: I consider myself as a cultural person. I love people, music, art, travel and cultures. My interest in the world doesn’t have limits, just like my curiosity for everything she has to offer. On one hand I believe wholeheartedly that there is more between Heaven and Earth, on the other hand: my feet are firmly standing on the ground. One thing is for sure: my heart is open to the world in all its strength, and I would like everyone to open up.
Me: Versatile, sensitive, enthusiastic, creative, spontaneous, sometimes I know very well what I want and often I don’t have a clue. I am full of contradictions. I love to get to know new people, but afterwards I am afraid to let those people care about me. I never stop talking, but when it comes down to it I don’t have anything to say. My humor is cynical and black, the opposite of my hair color. I am preferably positive, although that can change rapidly. I am extremely adventurous, curious and I have a open mind. I have a solid wall around me though. I follow my heart and although I don’t live an average life, I do what I want to do and nothing else is necessary. We are all good enough.