Black. All is black as hell. I am shocked. I do not understand. It is beyond comprehension. Grandfathers, grandmothers, fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, colleagues, friends and are gone. Just gone. On their way to paradise they end up in hell. Grandfathers, grandmothers, fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, colleagues, friends and family are left behind. Torn apart. How can someone get this, deliberately, in his head? I am constantly looking for the beautiful places and beautiful moments on this world, but around me everything falls apart. Since forever. What is it with this world? Is there still a place in the world where the wind blows nothing else but peace? I don’t have words anymore. I know I could write books filled with touching words but now I can’t seem find them. It doesn’t matter anyway.
This is beyond comprehension.
This tragic accident comes closer than I could ever image. And I am not the only one. This day has a double black edge and I wish I could just hold everyone for a moment. Someone who I’ve been working very close with for the past year was in this plane with his family. A wonderful person. I am shocked. I blow a lot of strength and love to the families for their great loss to be worn. This is not about me, but for them. I don’t need to hear any words. I’m the one still sitting on the couch. Beautiful stories will come again, but now feel misplaced. First, let everything be black.